Again...

Awhile back I downloaded an App called "timehop" which syncs your social media and lets you relive the past...Which is great if the past is something you actually want to relive. Occasionally my timehop reveals fun events like drinking with friends, sporting events or concerts I had forgotten I attended, etc. And sometimes it reveals a previous time I was on this journey. 

A little part of me dies inside when I see where I was only 2 short years ago. I did a half marathon a year and a half ago...holy crap you guys! I went on vacation wearing size 14 shorts and size large tops less then 17 months ago! And I could see my collar bones, which doesn't seem like much to most, but it was huge for me! 

2 Years ago I signed up for a half marathon, and the following May, I completed it. I cried when I crossed that finish line.  Did I run the whole thing? Heck No! Did I almost give up? HECK YES! But I pushed through, and I ran across that finish line and I had never been prouder of myself or what I had done.

So what happened? Why am I starting over AGAIN! Why am I in a size 20 pants (too tight) and 2 XL shirts again? 

Because I went back to doing what I had always done. I started eating crap, again. I stopped working out, again. And found myself 55 pounds heavier, again. What's to say this won't happen again? I have NO idea...I wish it were that easy. I wish I could say that I won't fall again, but I can't. Because this is MY journey, and I know that I will fall, and I know that I will cheat. But I will get back up! And I will get back on track. I have faith that I will find a way to meet my goals. All I can do is take it one day at a time...one workout at a time...one meal at a time...one burpee at a time!   

This morning I had the privilege of working out with some amazing ladies at boot camp. I've been doing boot camp for 4+ weeks now and while I have felt a change in my endurance and strength, I haven't seen a change on the scale (by my own doing with bad choices with food and alcohol). I have made up excuses as to why I can't make a workout and I have justified eating unhealthy foods. Worst of all, I have been phoning it in with the the workouts that I do make. Today was the opposite. These ladies pushed me and while I thought they were crazy for wanting to double the exercises and skip the active recovery, I did it with them, and I loved every minute. They pushed me to the extreme, and I pushed my body to places I was proud of again. They welcomed me with open arms and asked me to do it with them again tomorrow. While I can't guarantee that I won't fall in this journey, I may just have surrounded myself with people that will pick me right back up when I do.  

So in the words of myself 2 years ago today...I'm Excited and Nervous, but ready to conquer the next milestone in this journey...AGAIN!

Allergic to Mornings

Apparently, I have discovered a lot of allergies lately...unfortunately none of them are health related...in the sense that I need medication. Well, not allergy medication at least.

Also, I need this sweatshirt.

Last week I made a commitment to workout in the mornings. I am NOT a morning person. I'm probably the farthest thing from it...I would sleep until noon if given the opportunity. I did the 5:30 am Boot-camp last Friday and had every intention to do Saturday Weekend Warrior but no lie, I felt like my arm muscles were separated from my bones on Saturday (Thursday was an arm gauntlet) and I could barely move my arms to do a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g.

I set my alarm to head to boot-camp this morning and of course I made an excuse and decided to go at 4:30 pm. I'm not skipping a workout, I'm still going to get it done and do the work, but I'm disappointed that I didn't keep a promise I made to myself. No one is going to do this for me, no one is going to hold my hand.


Tomorrow night I have bowling so I HAVE to workout in the morning otherwise I won't get a work out in and my goal is to work out 5 times this week. I will go to bed early this week and get my arse out of bed at 4:45 tomorrow morning. I will because I am going to keep my promises to myself this week.

I found this quote and I feel like it really fits with my situation. As soon as I drop the excuses, I will see results.





Weekly Accomplishments:

• This is the first weekend that Nate and I have not drank anything in a loooong time :) 
• With the exception of mashed potatoes last night, I ate very well this weekend!
• I am back to the weight I was before vacation (I know I wasn't supposed to check the scale but I wanted to see if I was getting closer to my starting weight)
• I have still stayed away from soda but I could probably up the water